this.moment

dear mikki and katie…

today i picked you up, Katie, and we ran through the slushy mud-soaked snow of the grocery store parking lot. i held your body tight to my chest and felt the vibration of your cherubic giggle radiate through to my rib cage . you untied your arms from around my neck and threw them into the ice-bitten air, your fingers reaching to what seemed like the top ceiling to the sky. you never felt lighter to me. i have carried you in my arms since the day you were born, and it was as if the freedom you felt in that one, single moment made you weightless. you tossed your head back and closed your eyes and i watched your soul come up through and saturate your beautiful face. the soft curls of your hair flew all around wild and feral.

time winked, and we were inside the store. . . moment over.

there are so many peices of time that i am sure i miss because i am busy and rushing and not embracing being a mother and all of the gifts it has given me. all of the joy.

but

i

didn’t

miss

that

one.

i write these bits on my blog, and i don’t know if you will every read any of them… but if i had to pick any for you to read it would be this one post. because i could write 1,000 lessons…a million and it wouldn’t matter. in the end, it is really you two who actually teach me, who fulfill me….the most.

thank you.

all my love darlings,

p.s: daily mantra: this moment contains all moments…c.s.lewis