{the.wednesday.whistle}

dear Mikki and Katie….

i couldn’t think of anything to write today. i thought about it all last night before i went to bed and then again when i got up to let our meowing {howling really} cat out into the garage at 2:30am. i stared at the wall next to the bed thinking about this, and about all of the other things i had to do today. i dozed finally and dreamed about a clean desk with no post it notes {love post it notes in all shapes, sizes, and colors} and no lists of venders to call, emails to send, orders to ship, more calls, more emails, more studying. it was a great dream. alas, i awoke at 5:30am to find that the pile had not only stayed there on my desk, but had given birth to babies like those furry, bizzaro creatures in the Gremlin’s movie {you have no idea what i am talking but don’t spill water on them}.  there was a time in my life when i wouldn’t procrastinate or wait until the last minute…when i would get my papers done a week before they were due, or even pay my bills a month in advance, or buy toilet paper before it ran out. i would color coordinate, and put things in pretty folders, and separate my paper clips by color.  i call this time, Amanda BC. Amanda Before Children. or life. somewhere in between conception, pregnancy brain, giving birth, and finally realizing that ‘pregnancy brain’ doesn’t actually leave after you aren’t pregnant anymore…yeah, it stays…i found myself in a cyclical procrastination pattern that can only be compared to some type of black hole out there in the universe. so today, i sat down in front of my desk, put the gate up for a while to allow for no sudden interruptions of uttermost urgency (such as…you needed another snack because the one i just gave you, Katie, was eaten by your imaginary friend), and whipped out work like a crazy woman. of course, this is last minute. as usual. i emerged from my desk with victory none the less, and a topic for today….don’t put off what you can do today, until tomorrow.

all my love darlings,

p.s. daily mantra: “a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step”….{lao-tzu}