i feel like i have dealt with my fair share of life lessons this week and its just thursday. the rawness of the human experience always takes me by surprise- sometimes it takes my breath away; my heart. i melt into this comfortable little life of semi-perfection, complain about things that don’t matter but seem like they do {crumbs on the carpet, or too many dishes, cellulite}, and forget to be truly thankful for the gifts i have been infinitely blessed to receive. and i am sure once this open wound has healed {and it will…i know it will, because it has before}, that the events that envelop our daily existence will return to a quiet sustainability, and perhaps the occasional mini-struggle for flavor. even as a mother, and that is the job that defines me most, you get numb from….too much perfect. {if there is very too much, right?} in a way, its nice to be reminded that this journey is genuine and real in every way…good and bad.
daily mantra: life is the art of drawing without an eraser….{unknown}
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I <3 Amanda. Really is there anything else I can say that I haven’t said before? You are amazing and my thoughts are with you.
Your words are SO true… I sometimes feel like bad things HAVE to happen every once in a while to remind us that this is REAL and that things aren’t ALWAYS perfect, ya know? Been thinking of you a LOT today sweetie. xoxo
Beautifully said this morning. Your words reminded me of echoes of past days in my life. Infertility for seven years – 10 babies in heaven due to early miscarriages – memories of 3 months in a NICU with my former 25 weeker….hard stuff of life. And yes…the days when I look at my three kids with eyes wide open I realize that I too, have gotten numb to perfection. I am a JSO photographer and last night my husband buzzed all the hair off my five year olds head. I was so mad at him because (first) as a photographer, he just messed with one of my precious models for the next two months at least
, and second…I could see the scars left in Ty’s head from all the IV’s. It’s been haunting me to look at. Your post reminded me though that I should see those battle scars as the greatest blessings because my son survived. Hold on to the grace of today. The blessings are many. (PS – your blog has been on my feed reader for a long time. 
Mandy you have a beautiful soul and your post touched my hear. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
thinking of you today and
knowing, like you say, everything
will be okay in the end. Just knowing you have
your two beautiful girls is enough!
big hugs!
tara
Beautiful photo. You are amazing Mandy. ♥
Just wonderful! These kind of “animals” are the best!
Mandy – Although I don’t personally “know” you I can tell you are an amazing person:) It is my honor to read your posts:) Even in your time of sadness you are so eloquent with your words. It is your words and letters to your daughter that have lifited me so many times….thank you:)
Beautiful shot and beautiful processing! I’m sorry you’ve had such a difficult week, I hope it improves quickly!
I haven’t been keeping up on things at 2ps, but when you say “open wound” I think I know what you’re talking about. I hope I’m wrong, but if not, just know that my thoughts are with you as you’re struggling through.
It makes us stronger, right?